Camel loaded with strawPoor camel, broke her back.

The mailman brought the last straw today.

I was out in the driveway, just moved my van out of the garage so I could get to the wood scraps.  The signs we had with our house numbers could barely be read — if you knew what they said.  It was past time to replace them with the fire department’s reflective numbers.  I was trying to figure out the easiest way to put the new signs up (anything but drilling into the brick), when the mailman pulled up.  I tucked it under my arm and looked around the garage.  Realizing that I’d loose the mail if I carried it around much longer, I took it inside.

Some time later, after drilling holes in the signs to match the holes from the old signs, I opened the mail.

I didn’t think there was anything special about the letter from the DMV, had to be paperwork for my van.  Turned out — my driver’s license is being revoked effective June 11.  The reason — “Failure to submit medical report.”  Uhhh . . .  What medical report?  The form they’ve sent me before renewing my license?  Maybe.  Probably.  But they didn’t send me a form.  Or, I didn’t get the form they sent.  Doesn’t matter what happened.  The result — I’ve got to jump through hoops for the DMV.

I stayed as calm as I could for as long as I could — until Lew fell asleep.  Then I quietly slipped out to the kitchen.  That was it.  I had finally reached my limit and came unglued.  I was still crying when Lew came out, “Are you okay?  What’s wrong?”  He had already forgotten.

“I can’t take any more crap!  I’ve had enough!  I can’t handle any more shit!” and I ran away from him to close the world off in the bathroom.

I can’t believe I said that to Lew.  He was trying to comfort me when I left the room, shutting him out.  Later, I told him that he better not die tonight.  I don’t think he heard me.  I’ll probably stay awake all night listening to his breathing.

Oops.  Things are back to normal (our normal).  Lew just got up to look for the “big guns.”  Seems he’s building cannons in his dreams.  He couldn’t tell me who he was selling them to, though.